He's Home

Archie came back to us. It's good to have him home.

Letting Go

Any of you that know me even remotely well know that I love my dogs. We got Archie in the fall of 2006 and he has been our baby ever since. Through the thick and thin of the past three years, he has been right there with us. Then we got Clifford about 2 months ago to keep both us and Archie company. We recently decided for the benefit of everyone to give them to a family with a stay at home mom and two little kids. Ben and I are gone so much and no one was here to take care of them, love them, and give them the attention that they deserve. I never imagined giving away my dogs, never, but we had to make that choice. They have now been gone for two weeks and my heart is still broken. I feel like I have lost a best friend. I know how cheesy that sounds, but Archie got me through some tough times. I remember the day we found out in vitro didn't work, I was so sad. That night I went to the gas station and brought Archie with me, walking out and seeing Archie's little face through the window, waiting patiently for me made my day. I felt loved... comforted. My dogs made me smile every day and I miss them more than I can express.

Um...can anyone say stuffed animal? He was the cutest puppy I have ever seen.

Archie and Mommy in our first home together...where we weren't allowed to have dogs:)

Archie and Daddy (Ben will kill me for putting that) hanging out in his new sweater Fish got him for Christmas.

Hanging out at the Nelsons, his second home while we were in California

The big moving day...he sat on my lap or on the floor of the moving van the entire 14 hours. He was a trooper.

Aiden giving him slobbery kisses, they both loved this!

His first snow at the new house

Just looking SO DARN CUTE!

Hanging out in the crate. Ben was not the only one to do this, I am pretty sure all of the neices and nephews have tried this as well.

Our first Christmas in Utah, posing for the camera.

One of our favorite things to do. He wasn't allowed on our bed, so I would take naps on the couch just so we could cuddle.

Our new addition. Clifford loved to play fetch, he is just waiting for someone to grab that ball and throw.

Two best friends hanging out (with their long and mangy hair)

Taken on our last day together, saying goodbye.

We went to visit last night and they really are with a GREAT family and they are going to be so happy there. I am so grateful we found such wonderful people to take care of our babies.

Prayer

I just had an experience where I received an automatic answer to a prayer. I remember this happening one time on my mission. Kind of a funny story actually. I was on splits with another sister missionary. She was Taiwanese and had only been a missionary for a few weeks. I had also only been out for about a month, so needless to say we were both very "green". I guess I was a pretty anxious missionary, trying to get a lot done, making sure I was doing my part (this would be thanks to Sister Janette Priddis, best trainer a girl could ask for). So anyway, one night we were riding our bikes back to the church to meet with an investigator and we were running late so I guess I was riding extremely fast. Well, this sister asked me once to slow down, but I didn't. The next thing I knew.....I was slowing down because my TIRE WAS FLAT. You know what this sisters response was when she finally caught up to me? "Wow, I have never had a prayer answered so fast". I laughed about it....later.

Tonight I had a prayer answered that fast. I had just done some scripture study (studying the New Testament right now and the life of Christ) when I decided to kneel and pray. I have been very stressed about a specific situation with doctors bills and insurance companies. I am going to be talking to the people involved again in the morning and am worried that it is not going to get resolved, so I was praying for help that this situation will get resolved. The issue is all around a tax id number that the insurance company has and the doctors office does not. Its a long and complicated situation and has been going on for months. I spent an hour on the phone yesterday and an hour on the phone today trying to figure out where this tax id number came from and why the doctors office didn't have record of the same tax id that the insurance company did. If this doesn't get resolved, we are looking at paying $2200.00 for something that should be covered 100% by the insurance...all over some number. So, I was praying, asking for help when the thought came to me "google the tax id number". I know it sounds so simple, maybe even something I should have thought of myself, but I didn't. I went straight to the computer and googled that number. Only 3 results came back, but two of them gave me the exact information on this tax id number and where it came from. I wanted to shout for joy. It was one of the most clear and overwhelming answers I have ever received. I knew without a doubt that the Lord was aware of me and my situation at that moment and that the Spirit whispered that answer to me, simple as it was. I have no idea if this information is going to fix the situation, but I KNOW it is going to help, I KNOW that the Lord gave me that answer and I am so grateful for that.

I know that there are plenty of people that read my blog that maybe don't believe that the Lord hears and answers prayers, or maybe don't even believe there is a God. I disagree. This and way too many other experiences I have had in my life testify to me that there is a God and He will answer us....any of us.

Try it, you might be surprised:)

Girls Weekend

So, my friend Lindsey posted a picture from our girls weekend. She was worried we would hate her for it....it is a bathing suit picture, but I am pretty sure my pictures are worse, but oh so fun!

First, jumping from bed to bed on the first night. Soon after we were called by the hotel and told we were being too loud. It was 3 AM. I bet they didn't guess it was a bunch of sober Mormon girls acting like 10yr olds:)!



The next one is the best picture EVER! We were all dying laughing. At the moment of the picture, Jennica was jumping on the bed, who KNOWS what Kimmie is doing, and Lindsey was tripping in front of the camera. I love this picture. It depicts exactly what girls weekend is all about....CRAZINESS!

This was some of the yummy food. It was a Hawaiian Shaved Ice place, and anyone who has had real Hawaiian shaved ice knows how great it is. This place was awesome and don't my girls look so cute? This was during a break from shopping, cause that was all we did...shop, eat and lay by the pool.

Sorry Linds, my camera is horrible, but I had to post a picture of the MOUND of treats! This has become a tradition. Since our first girls weekend 3 years ago, Lindsey has been in charge of bringing our favorite treats. This wasn't even half of it either. Um...she definitely takes her job seriously! Thanks Linds. My tummy thanks you, but my oh too tight jeans don't!


I almost posted a picture of me in a bathing suit by the pool, but that just wasn't as cute as this one. We spent a LOT of time by the pool. Our hotel was awesome and the pool was surrounded by big cushy beds. There was even a real sand beach for the kids to play. It was so nice and we loved just laying around reading and catching some rays.


I didn't get one picture of all of us, but I just have to say, I have the best friends ever. These girls keep me sane and happy. I love our girls trips because I love these girls. Thanks for the fun shopping, laughing, talking, eating and just relaxing. It was just what I needed.

Family Reunion

Last week we traveled up to Calgary, Alberta for the McMurray family reunion. I was looking so forward to going up to Canada and spending time with family, vacationing, relaxing, being away from work, etc. I was actually so excited that I was concerned I would end up being disappointed, that it wouldn't live up to my expectations. Thankfully I was wrong. I was not disappointed at all. The trip went way beyond my expectations, seriously!!!! I cannot think of anything I would have changed. Even the hours and hours in the car just added to the experience.
I wish I could write about everything we did, everywhere we went, everyone and everything we saw, but I can't. I really liked what Tiffany did with her entry, so I am going to do the same. I am going to put down some of the highlights of the trip, but I am going to do it day by day. WARNING: it's long, but totally worth it.

DAY 1: Saturday, July 11th (full day driving with Jess, Justin and Avery)

1. Stopping in Lima, Montana (said like the beans) for lunch because we had passed all the big cities and entered TINY town territory. Really, we stopped in two other towns first and decided against them cause they were way too small and had NOTHING.
2. Jogging in Great Falls with Ben. I love just being new places and doing everyday things.

DAY 2: Sunday, July 12th

1. Ben speaking to the Filipinos at Subway in Lethbridge. Alberta seems to have lots of Filipinos. Maybe we could fit in there:)
2. Arriving at the reunion at Eric and Tina's and seeing cousins that I have not seen in years.
3. Hearing my mom tell stories about my Grandpa McMurray and what a great father he was.
4. Hanging out with Jordan and Melissa at our quaint little Bed and Breakfast.

DAY 3: Monday, July 13th

1. Dave (owner of the Bed and Breakfast) saying his "AWESOME" prayer over breakfast in his very thick Canadian accent.
2. The Alberta honey on the homemade bread at breakfast.....oh the honey!!!
3. Going to beautiful Lake Sundance, setting up games, only to be rained out and end up at the local Church Building.
4. Being caught by my Grandma in the middle of eating a grape before lunch was ready (the cardinal sin).
5. Napping all afternoon!!
6. The talent show, especially Jayna's rap!!!
8. Convincing Jess and Justin to come to Harry Potter at midnight the next night. I never thought they would do it and was so glad they decided to.

Day 4: Tuesday, July 14th

1. The Alberta honey...again! It definitely deserves to be on the list twice.
2. Elbow Falls in the rain. So beautiful. It almost has me convinced I could live in Oregon some day.
3. Eating lunch at Bragg Creek with Ben, Jordan, Melissa, Kristen, Nolan, Aiden and Regan.
4. Melissa's bucket list!

5. Visiting my friend Tanya and her family. It's been a VERY long time.
6. Sitting around the campfire, sharing memories of Grandpa and just remembering times together when we were younger.
7. Standing in line for Harry Potter (thanks Spence and Michelle). I especially enjoyed the time we had to spend with Travis and Robin. It was fun to get to know them better.

Day 5: Wednesday, July 15th

1. Coras breakfast....I have NEVER seen crepes so big! My favorite part of breakfast was actually taking my niece, Addy, and just getting to be with her.
2. Not the drive to Banff.....expecting 1.5 hours, ended up being over 3! Yikes. It was worth it though.
3. Lake Louise.........the pictures don't even do it justice. It was more than beautiful.
4. The most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen, arched right over the town of Banff.
5. Dinner at The Spaghetti Factory. I think it was just nice to take a break and eat what I wanted. (too much dieting lately)
6. Walking around Banff with Ben, buying fudge and our matching CANADA jackets.

Day 6: Thursday, July 16th

1. Stopping to go to the bathroom at the gas station in some tiny town town and Ben and Justin both having to go outside behind the building.
2. Meeting Ryan Scott and his adorable family in Waterton. Ryan and I were in the same MTC district and have been great friends ever since. This was the first time I have seen him in 8 years.
3. Looking through the telescope at Cameron Lake and yelling "I see a bear". Oh I got some great reactions.
4. Actually seeing 2 bears only 10 minutes later as we were leaving the park.
5. The two Elk we saw outside of the park. It was just as the sun was going down and they were just standing there, looking majestic.
6. Seeing my mom and dad packed into a tiny hot tub with like 10 other people, haha!
7. The Cardston Temple.
8. French Fries with gravy at Dairy Queen.

Day 7: Friday, July 17th

1. Turning around at the Canadian Border to go to the Duty Free store and having the Border Guard (is that what they are called?) YELLLL at Ben out the window.
2. Having to stop on the road to let a BEAR CUB cross.
3. Going-to-the-Sun Road in Glacier Park: WOW! Scary if you are afraid of heights, but totally worth it.
4. Stopping to let Justin fish and just putting my feet in the cold river water.
5. Dill Pickle Potatoe Chips
6. Driving thru very scenic towns in Montana.
7. Eating at Outback after our long day

Day 8: Saturday, July 18th

1. Uh.....the long drive!! (not)
2. Avery singing "Shssshh Girl, Shut your lips" :)
3. Getting home and finding out we were locked out, haha!
4. Being home, out of a car.

Honestly, I don't even know if I included everything I wanted to. This was such a GREAT experience, an awesome vacation and such a great break. Thank you to our Canadian family. It was so good to see everyone. We missed those of our family and others that weren't there and can't wait for everyone to be at the next one.

Back to the Simple Life

A few days ago I sat and went back to the beginning of this blog and was reminded of why I started writing it, why we moved to Utah and the fact that we have kind of gotten away from that. It is all about the Simple Life! This weekend was a great reminder of why we are in Utah and what it is that we love about it.

We got to go to the Lehi Round Up Rodeo....the perfect reminder of small town America and how much I love living in it. We get so caught up with work, school, and just being busy that we forget to enjoy the small things. Another reason we wanted to be here was to be by family. This weekend we got to go to little Addy's birthday party which was another reminder of how great it is to be close to family.

Back to the simple life!

The words I cannot express

I have been thinking about stopping my blog. I feel like I say too much, I expose myself and make all my personal information public. I am not sure how everyone else feels about this, and previously I didn't think I cared. But this IVF experience has made me question the sanity in always sharing everything. That is how I am, how I have always been. I talk, I express myself, I do not hold things in. But...sharing makes you vulnerable and that is scary. Over the past 2 weeks, since we received the news that our IVF cycle didn't work, I have really questioned whether sharing is the right thing or the wrong thing to do. Throughout this process, I thought that talking about it would help me, that I would have more support, and I did. But, it brought along with it the pressure of other people hoping with you, and the added disappointment of knowing that it isn't only my hopes that have been shattered. It also brings with it the aftermath, feeling that everyone knows it failed and no one knows what to say. I have always been a talker, but this experience has changed me. I don't want to talk about it. In the past 2 weeks, I have shockingly talked to no one but Ben about my feelings. I can't. I don't tell people what I am feeling, because I don't want to feel vulnerable anymore. Anyway, I don't know what I am going to do about my blog, and I still feel that this whole process is what the Lord needed for us to go through, but it has been even harder than I expected. I found something on another blog that describes quite perfectly how I have been feeling and why about this whole experience. I hope reading here helps you to better understand what this process is like, and then you will know what I am feeling without me having to tell you because I don't know when or if that will happen.
Thank you all for letting me deal with this in my own way!