I apologize in advance for the length of this post, but sometimes (most of the time) I have a lot to say. So, one thing that really struck me this year during Christmas is how important children are. Watching my Aiden and Regan play Joseph and Mary, sitting in front of the baby Jesus so reverently reminded me how close little children are to the spirit, how recently they have been with our Heavenly Father. Every chance I get to spend with my nieces and nephews is precious to me. My baby nieces, Avery and Hailey, are just so sweet and so fun to be with. I love being here to watch them grow up and experience new things. I loved having Aiden and Regan here from California. I had the chance to be there with them through so much over the past couple of years and miss them so much. I enjoy being back in Spencer and Monika's lives, to be here while they are starting the fun (??) teenage years. I love each of them separately, and hope that in some way I can have an influence in their lives, but this year my desire and yearning to have children of my own that I can teach, influence, love, help, and raise has just grown so much. Then, tonight, I went to lds.org and came across the most amazing article that just went along perfectly with my feelings. Our wonderful prophet is reminding us of the preciousness of children and our great responsibility to love and nurture them, to teach them the truth, to help them to know who they are so they have wonderful lives and become who it is that the Lord has in plan for them. Again, I was reminded of how important children are and how vital it is to have a family and live your life in a way that will help the children around us. http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=f318118dd536c010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=0f6920da30286110VgnVCM100000176f620a____&hideNav=true
Many of you may ask if we want children, why we haven't had any yet. Well, we have been told that it will be very hard for me to get pregnant. Ben and I feel very strongly that we will have our own children, but it's hard to have such a strong desire for something and really have no control over it. We trust the Lord and know He wants us to have a family as well and trust in His timing. We feel good about starting the adoption process with LDS Family Services in March (our 2 year anniversary) and are looking forward to that. Maybe this is too much information, but a huge part of my life and me is this desire and hope to have a family, and I figure this blog is kind of like a journal, so sorry if you are learning too much about me. Anyway, I am so excited for the chance to have one of Heavenly Father's children placed in my home and to have the chance to share the gospel with them, and to learn from them. I can't wait! Hopefully, we won't have to wait too long, but if we do, we will just continue to love the children in our lives to the fullest!